Submitted by Captain Potter
People come and go, that is how the cycle is in life. Sometimes, no matter how long you’ve known a person, you could still lose them due to unforeseen circumstances, and that is where the story gets sad.
I’ve lost a lot of people but to lose someone who means everything to me, who is the only reason I kept on trying, the only person who showed me what love is – was difficult. I find it unbelievable that some people could easily let go of things that took years to be built, is it really that easy?
There are days I don’t understand why things are so easily broken and I would sometimes suggest myself with the idea of “maybe we didn’t try hard enough”. But that was no comfort at all, because the more I think about it, the more it seems to kill me emotionally. Because I was devastated but that person; was doing all just fine. Unfair isn’t it but what’s life after all if it’s all fair?
I found it hard to overcome my sadness and what’s worst, people made assumptions and chose sides, which at all, isn’t necessary. How can I forget when I’ve spent most of my lifetime with this person? How can I erase this person when all I ever know is that my happiness depends on them? And that’s when I realize I was wrong all this time.
I was wrong because I depended on others for my happiness. I was wrong thinking that I mean so much to this person like how they are to me. But was I really wrong for being honest? Am I really wrong for showing efforts and trying my best to fix things?
I learned, day by day, that I was wrong for thinking that I know this person so well when actually I don’t. I begin to change my ideas of thinking, I found out that one’s happiness does not need to depend on people mostly, because one’s happiness depends on them themselves. Sometimes we are all wrong for believing that things would last, but now that I’ve figured it out, we all have to actually accept the fact that “not everything lasts forever.” In letting go and forgetting, revenge is totally unnecessary because the main point in moving on and forgetting is to forgive and forget, not to forgive and avenge.
Also in the process of moving on, you’ve got to learn how to ACCEPT the truth and RESPECT each other’s decisions. Though things might end up quite bad but we all have to understand that if it is meant to be, it will come back to you but if it’s not, something better will come as replacement. Often we are fooled by our mind, but that’s the point, play along with your mind, distract yourself from getting too involved in the whole situation, eventually, you’ll find yourself worrying less.
And when you’re ready, build up the courage to be frank and confront the person. Talk out what’s best and decide what has to be done. If it doesn’t work, then get rid of them, why? Because they are the toxic in your life which is not worthy to be kept. So if that person states that all of this leads to a ‘dead end’, let go. Easy to say, but trust me, once you’re ready to start over, you’ll find out that all this mess is very useful to be used as a platform to develop a much better version of ourselves.
But you have to know, we might say we’ve moved on fully but we actually have not. A part of us (be it tiny part) still lives through the moments, still lives with them because that’s how it goes – we never and shouldn’t forget all the best memories that happened in our lives, be it in the past or the present because you’ll find it on days you feel empty, these ‘past’ memories is what will you keep going. Last step, learn to let go and let God lead the way. Never ever hold any grudges because what happened is actually the best thing that could happen, why? Because you lose somebody, you get hurt, then you build yourself up again, you start to believe, you move on and you, LEARN. These painful happenings are the most valuable lessons one could get (I could get) because it teaches us a lot of things, that is one; forever exist only if we work hard to make it exist, two; whatever we lose would be replaced with something better, three; efforts goes both ways, four; do not trust easily, five; whatever you do, make sure that you’re doing it because YOU want to do it, not because OTHERS said so, and lastly; if it’s meant to be it will be.
– yours truly, captain.potter